30 Juni 2026. Aku bergelut dengan UAS sialan itu, dan masih ada kertas UAS lain yang menumpuk di mejaku. Sembari mendengar tembang This Time Last Year yang dialunkan oleh Rina Sawayama, tiba-tiba aku teringat sesuatu yang menghentikanku dari pengerjaan UAS. Ya, aku memang disibukkan dengan UAS pertengahan tahun ini. Tetapi setidaknya, kegiatan ini menghindariku dari keinginan untuk bunuh diri. Aku pun terbawa pada apa yang terjadi pada pertengahan tahun lalu. 18 Juli 2025. "Kamulah pilot yang melihat pesawat lain sudah terbang ke negara lain. 'Hebat, ya, pesawat dia sudah ada di Jepang. Eh, pesawat itu sudah di Jerman,' sedangkan pesawatmu? Stuck , lepas landas pun belum," ucap psikolog yang menanganiku, Kak Kori. Tiada analogi yang tepat menggambarkanku selain itu, karena membandingkan diri dengan yang lain adalah penyakit yang pernah menggerogoti tubuhku. "I'm too busy thinking people hate me without realizing that I'm my number one hater!" S ...
Just like what Kacey Musgraves sang on her song titled Slow Burn , "I know a few things, but I still got a lot to learn," I'm tattooing that lyric on my brain like I mean it. Each time I tell my dad about my journey, he always says, "This is already enough for someone who learns," hence why I believe that if authors could write romance stories with a slow burn trope, I could write the story of my life with the same trope too. Throughout my whole life, I never really knew who I would become because... You know, I'm not the type of person who knew from the start what I would do. Well I guess I'll just keep on trying. At least my dad promised me that I'm going somewhere, even though I don't know where to go... Yet. During my school days, I was always in a hurry, expecting the result to come quickly, as if there was no time left. As I grow older (hopefully wiser too), I realize that I have a lifetime to learn, so why would I go in a rush anyway? That...